story of her

hey readers, :)


someone told me to update my blog, but i have no idea what to say now that all my hopes and my dreams seems lost..


but.. i want to shared about this beautiful girl i met. I met her first on club with her sisters. dont misunderstood about her in a club cause i guess it was her siblings the one bring her to that place. (by the way club is a good place to dance) i know her from my friends. i was interested with her but we have no background history. 


      its was my cousin's birthday so they bring her have fun to celebrate her birthday. then we were all dancing except her, so i decided to invite her dance with me . luckily she agree and dance with me. it was fun night and one step closer for me to know more about her.


       i met her again on her sister wedding reception. she was so beautiful and wearing a blue dress. im not the type that is very brave to invite someone that i know i have crush on  dancing with me, but i done it and again she let me dance with her. thats is a very nice of her to not let my offer down.


      day by day, night by night we contacting each other. i was so into her but i could not tell her that cause i dont want her to see me as a weak guy that melt just to see a beautiful girl. i was very honest to her throughout our conversation.


      then one valentine night. i could not hold myself just to confess what i felt for her. then the time has come for me to confess to her. i did.... she didnt response. i guess she was shock with my confession as myself too. i was so glad i spill it out and felt my body like want to fly cause i felt so light.

         -TO BE CONTINUED-


     

Hi!

loving every moment with you

Just ordinary day

Dear Circus readers,:D

     Today im working in morning shift (9AM til 5PM).. gosh im late 4 minutes only but i still have to open lateness form and ask my assistant manager to sign it.. what ashamed...  great job cyril..

      Nothin much happening, except the TYT (its like Sabah's king except.. we don't have a king) check-in to our hotel and i was suppose to go for badminton training at church's hall.. but the training started at 3PM til 5PM.. THATS MY WORK TIME OK! !@#$%^&*(*&^%$#@!! hahaha..  siok oh who can go for the traning.. late me list them.. Gugu, Ms. Arsih, Hidzam, Putih & Marvyn went oh!!! .. i dont have work to do also, so i feel like damn! im trying to cool down myself saying that this is not the last training, theres always next time... so i felt better..

       Finish work went to church to attend mass.. but then i met with friends from CSA (Catholic Student Association) they just had their party.. so much food ..!!! and i was late! hahaha NAH. -_-' then Brenda start snapping picture.. then we like gila2x this jump sana jump sni to get the perfect jump shot.. hahaha!

       Almost 6PM, saying goodbyes to them and met Valerie (Vexter's sister) .. usually i will sit my Marvyn but he was not there.. (he went back to his house and then came back) so i asked Valerie to sit with me while waiting for Marvyn.. Val told me that shes waiting for Elanora (i called her penguin bha, she hate it when i call her that name hahahaha!) cause she want to bring Val jalan2x because its Val birthday! but si Penguin with his boy pula c Glen (yes he's my sister ex-) sna jauh2x .. Happy Birthday Val btw.. sory no present.. 

      

         Then mass started.. not so long after that Marv show up.. he kept silent... that is awkward.. so i open story just to make things better.. i ask him who sent him back.. then everything ok la... while listening to Msgn's homily, i know im goin to be sleepy.. so as usual i will start writting or drawing anything that came up to my mind at the buletin while listening the homily.. ok wat.. im still listening.. then i saw her.. the "come what may" girl~ ya right ! stop it cyril 

         Finish Mass, masuk kreta.. i kept silent.. tia tau pa ja sa fikir.. its weird cause usually i will feel peace after mass but this is other side.. not sure if i should say it.. but i dun feel awesome bha haha.. the aura menghilang ne.. Y!! im not sure im upset pasal pa.. maybe because of work .. relationship with family and friends maybe juga.. but its ok la.. Time will heal bha kan. while on the way back home.. i msg my buddy asking him about the training.. but no reply.. ok.. its ok.. busy kali-thambha-tulak-bahagi #gagacircusmoment

        So in order kasi hilang this not so awesome feeling, arrive home trus gasak makanan d dapur this.. totally lapar...! makan ja apa ada !! ahahahaha..! then my tummy like full this! jadi ular sawa trus hahahahah! TRUS STARIGHT PIGI BILIK BHA!! hahaha... yes i did called her.. shes in semporna now.. wish to be close with her and just hug her but ofcourse thats not how things work right.. hee

  

         Get bored, called my bro to pick me up at house to his house.. lagi siok.. then yeah am at his house now using his lappy! muahahaha.. we had dinner again for me wahahaha tambha la buncit this purut.. but i dunno i kinda lapar oso SO MAKAN LAGI!! happy dapat makan ramai2x.. 

          Thats what happening today... just another ordinary day for me..

im sad ? oh gaga

       

miss me?

Dear Circus readers,


yes  i miss blogging... i am.. really... but i love reading all your awesome blog !! 
i din get the chance to update my blog which im sure you all have many activities for the past week..


start with the new year countdown, then the party begans! hahahaha... yeah... for me  have so many function kunun... and then goes with the chinese new year... angpau this year so many oh then the past years.. thank you all for the angpau hee

2012

hi cyril its 2012

#oh gaga

I'm Falling For You~

lyris of the day

I don't wanna tell you that I long to see your face

I'm scared it my scare you away

and I don't wanna tell you that sometimes I think of you and smile

cause time with you is time enough for now

But I don't know how long I can stick around and be

just another friend time and time again and hold my tongue.

I don't know how long before it breaks me down inside

and all my strength has gone away, and it's too late before I say

I'm falling for you 

I'm falling for you

I'm trying hard to be myself but I always seem to fail

I'm afraid I'm not the guy you know so well

cause every time I'm near you I just seem to lose my head

and spend my time admiring instead.

But I don't know how long I can stick around and be

just another friend time and time again and hold my tongue.

I don't know how long before it breaks me down inside

and all my strength has gone away, and it's too late before I say

I'm falling for you

I'm falling for you

I'm torn between the chance for everything and a price that I can't pay

losing you is something that I'd never chose so I'll just have to wait

but it kills me everyday

I'm falling for you

I'm falling for you

I'm falling for you

I'm falling for you

I don't wanna tell you sometimes I think of you and smile.

we met again! Vocation seminar

Marvyn, Adrian & Me :)

        Recently,  friends from Lahad Datu went to Tawau following their father for function in our hotel! They are Adrian Ray Villame And Steven Villame.

     

      We first met when we join for Vocation to be a priesthood.. but we just go for exposure... Represented Tawau was Matius, Marvyn & myself , Lahad Datu was represented by Adrian Ray, Roland and others, i couldnt remember already.. im sory ya guys... 

Happy faces of us!

       So we got to know each other and became very close after the Vocation!

not very long after that, i get to know that Adrian Ray Villame & Roland Vilame's fathers is my mother's cousin! so i guess thats made us 1st cousin or somehow related! That is awesome! no wonder we connected very fast! hahaha

Marvyn, Adrian & Me

       After i got to know that they are in town, I met them after work! We hangout, have dinner together (thanks for the treat btw Adrian, next time treat on me)

and be silly!

Yes thats us crazy as always :D

    

       We walk around Eastern ! and again and again.. hahahaha! I notice that i became old me who laugh a lot! yeah i get back my loud laugh when being silly with my cousin :D

        Then we said goodbye end of the night! we didnt say goodbye properly though as we though we will see each other again the next day.. but its ok.. because we still have time in the future to hang out!

        Thank you for coming dearly cousins.. hope to see you soon ya! take care then! Please dont forget us and just enjoy life XD

        

From Left : Me, Marvyn, PRIEST (LOL), Adrian & Matius

Staff Party January 2012 practise begins

2011 PHT Halloween Party with the FO team

Dear Circus readers... :D


        This week we started our dance practise for STAFF PARTY which will held on JANUARY 2012! it's a big event for the hotel staff because its the time where we loosen our body and have fun! 
    
         Well last year the management has started a performance competition where all department must perform anything and will be judge by the jury.. Last year was won by our department with the dance performance choreograph by a friend of mine aswell as my supervisor, Hannie.. Unfortunately i was not working at PHT yet that time. 


        This year the management decided to put "Back to 60's" as our theme for next Year Staff party competition! It's so exciting because it's my first time having a staff party and we will dress in 60's outfit! But we have one problem! that is Hannie is very sick now and is not able to work aswell choreograph our dance.


        So Ms. Riza together with Putih and me aswell with the other staff have to choreograph our performance and we have found our song! yippie!


      This week we started already slowly! as we have few number dance to perform! I am very excited and looking forward to have good memories with my fellow collegues as we learn the dance together!


       So Front Office team! Fighting! Lets grab the trophy again this year!




p/s: We practise at workplace until nearly 11pm! and i still feel very energetic to continue.. hahaha




PHT: Promenade Hotel Tawau

my look-alike?

Mr. Awesome, i appreciate this.. but we don't look alike! i mean him... o gosh.. really?
i think hes more handsome than me and im more AWESOME than him hahaha..
btw, thanks buddy

Santa Claus is my neighbour?!

i never know my neighbour were santa claus... no wonder we were always remind to "love our neighbour as we love ourselves!" hahaha bah i'll wait for christmas then i just collect my present at your house ah! hee

Baila Sayaw

Reisen, Me, Arlene, Vexter & Jac

Dear circus readers,


        I want to introduce y'all to my friends! They are the Baila Sayaw!
I've been performing with them several time already and it's been really fun performing with them! The picture above shows only few of the member..

maybank function

There are the best dancers i have met! Their style also mantap bah!
I am very excited for our performance!

hairstyle

was watching youtube... suddenly this shot came out.. and i was focusing the hairstyle! cool!


i want to make my hair like this can? what do u think? hee...

pokes...

why do you still poke me?

do you know how i feel when you did that?

cause misunderstanding eating me up..

you wont understand how i feel..

im trying to forget you..

but your name

ur voice..

its singing my head everyday.

yes.. everyday

my friends told me its time to forget you

but my heart cant stop loving you..

why should i be sad?

your happy.. and thats what i wanted

eventhough i wish you're happy with me

but you don't..

cause you never give me a chance..

 am i that stupid?

to think that you would accept me?

am i crazy?

i sound like a mad person

but i dont care if it's for you

yes.. im trying to forget you..

i will..

i must

relationship..

omg...!

i'm speechless is this for real?

Afternoon Shift as a reservation and a dancer

Happy friday dear reader,


As you know im working at Promenade Hotel Tawau as a Reservation.. and this whole week i'm working afternoon shift.. i get more time to rest which mean i will woke up late.. haha.. siok tu!
work at 1PM and then finish work at 9PM... fun right! usually at night time, we wont be so busy.. so i get to sing or dance at the back office sometimes! hahaha..


Sometimes when i'm in the middle of dancing suddenly other staff when to back office.. and i was prentending to look for files.. hahahah! but they know i love dancing and singing.. Sometimes when im waiting the lift, i will sing a song.. and suddenly be silent when people walk by.. haha..


my break time usually around 5PM til 7PM.. so i have 45 minutes to rest... this period time i will go to the canteen.. i will talk with my friends about our life.. hahaha! the food can be extraordinary delicious and sometimes can be very humble.. as long i got something to eat thats good :D


Whenever i finish work, i will be pick up and arrive home sleepy... but then when i see my lappy, my eyes open wide this like today! hahah.. i can go sleep very late too because of the lappy then regret it in the morning @@


so start tomorrow MORNING SHIFT!


p/s: offday on Sunday cause i have RCIA (remember i shared u about it on previous post? go check it out!)

omg omg!

last night i was just listening music from youtube... suddenly i hear a familiar intro.. i tought it was "Come What May" but then its sing "Hi!" ... i almost cant believe its a different song.. but they have same intro!

p/s: repost picture "come what may".. its brings back the feeling i felt last time.. :D

Friday Friday get it down Friday! Fun Fun Fun

Yeah i know the title look fun.. but i gotta go work lol... no party!


today i woke up, i received a message from marvyn.. 
he gave me a link... its a blog! hey..! marv u hav new blog?
and then i continue sleeping.. haha..


woke up few minutes later... straight away to the kitchen have my breakfast... then go online... yeah buruk kan perangai.. then i try to open the link... then its say.. PERMISION DENIED... i was like ok...
so i texted him about it.. so all i can do is just enjoy my day now while waiting him change the setting.. :)


p/s: christmas countdown :D

It's Jingle December!

Dear circus readers,

Wake up! wake up! cause its DECEMBER!

Whenever its comes to December, we automatically get excited! why?!!

cause christmas is around the corner!

November is such amazing month cause there's a lot of event happen! i cant list them one by one cause its so many!

And i know, i didnt update my story for a very long time! yeah i need to have my time for my blog.. but lately i've been so busy with preparation for Anniversary, Wedding & recently Birthday party!

Such an awesome month! but phew! its tiring! i didnt get the chance to share with you guys what was im doing all week! well, i'll try update as soon as possible when i have some awesome story to talk about alright?!

btw its December! as a catholic im so excited for Christmas..! why? because its the day when our savior Jesus was born! we'll be busy decorating the house especially the popular christmas tree although its western style... dont ask me why we following the western @@,

 so i'm looking forward for the christmas day!! Happy holiday everyone.. well ofcourse for those  work, lets the spirit of christmas remain strong!

Brenda's 15th Birthday Party

Dear Circus readers,

Last week sunday , my family and i aswell my buddy Marvyn attended Brenda's birthday party at the ocean restaurant...


at the entrance we met the birthday girl, Brenda! Wow! she's so beautiful! :D

Brenda greeted us :)

then we got to our table.. then came bradley and his brother! get excited! haha suddenly the restaurant full of excited people.. mostly children.. hahaa

shy shy faces at the beginning of the party

I was "unfortunately" the 1st singer to perform a requested song by the birthday girl.. so i sang to her on the stage.. its was really fun! i hope she like it..

beautiful soul brenda

there was alot of game and singing! and also 2 magic show by "Along & friends" and "Magic Loverboy".. There was 3 dance performing... and one of them is us! Our group called "Co-Ed Youth" consist of Rachel Roddy the Western Dancer, Calvin the B-boy & Me as the kpop dancer kunun! hahaha

performing with my dearly cousin was amazing opportunity! 

its really fun night... then.. i suddenly very close with this girl... hee

i'm not sure what is it.. but its the attraction.. i cant move away from her...

i guess i was drunk that night... before going back, we have our moment together heee ~

it was amazing... but i cant shared to much right.. hahaha

overall, it was crazy fun night! happy birthday brenda!

cyril is finally goin circus?

i don't know why.. but i feel like my situation now is eating me little by little... its painful... but im trying to ignore it..