Neglected Blog & My Life Now

    As usual I neglected my blog cause I can't found time to update and even when I have, I prefer to do something else haha. I also found it is hard to find enough line to post a blog haha. Anyway, I am doing good though. 

  This couple months, I spend my time travelling to many places! IM ON HOLIDAY after my first semester exam! First, I went to Kuala Lumpur, Cyber Jaya to exact for a government party then head on Langkawi Island meeting my mum and my folks there then went back to Kota Kinabalu for Kaamatan then straight to  Tawau visiting my family especially my nephew, Max. So that is pretty much what im doing all this while hehe. 

   Its been hell of a ride, I notice the more I grow up the more challenges that I have to endure and to settle more more problem. My love life is a like a joke, I cant even thinking to have someone by my side for this moment although a couple of amazing people coming to my life yet I reject and be friends with them only.

    I admit that I once fall in love with this particular person then I realise that she was never love me for once and I met her recently and shes doing good. I dont care.

    Thing I try to focus now is my damn study, man its getting harder and harder each time I wanted to learn not to say that I can't undrerstand a thing but its like I need to memorize all of this crap thing for 4 damn months only then I have exam. But hey, eventhough I complain a lot, things that need to be done shall be done right. Beside, I have new cool bitches with me all the time to help me go out of my mind all the time and just enjoy our 3 years period in this college. I hope I will have my convo with them.

      Until now, all I can do is just cross my finger and hope I will have place to sleep and money to go to my college and eat. Thats college life. Amen to that. Bye!

Thought

You know they say that bestfriends are forever ?

Think again.. maybe they never are..

Happy New Year 2014!

Hi readers,

Finally! 2014 ! wuhuu!!

2013 has taught me with many valuable experience to be more thoughtful and to choose the right direction for my life... As much as heavy for me to say goodbye to 2013, I rather saying thank you and see you again.. or maybe not XD

Enough about 2013! Let's talk about 2014 and what i'm doing with my life now! haha... sob sob

I AM A COLLEGE STUDENT!!!

Yes~ you read in right! I resign from Promenade Hotel since November last year after I got offer letter from KOLEJ YAYASAN SABAH which is going to be name "UNIVERSITI KOLEJ YAYASAN SABAH" here at Sembulan, Kota kinabalu this year as I was told by the college. I'm studying Real Estate/Property starting on December with my cousin Steven Ray Vilame. Living as a college student is awesome ! I can't deny it .. It's unbelieveable for me to be on college! haha I always have to take a step back and just thinking that this is real deal ~ I'm just grateful that I was given another chance to pursue my study! Eventhough my college is not famous and international or pretigious as other colleges/universities, I'm thankful and just dedicate to grab that DIPLOMA in 3 years! I know I can do this!

Other than that, What is your New Year resolution?? My New Year resolution is obviously concentrate on my study and just be active !!

and... I know I seldom post here at blogger aswell as on youtube but If you want to know what I up to~ I am always on facebook, wechat, twitter and even instagram.. you can find me there...!!

VIDEO BLOG !

Hey Circus readers,

    I just upload my second Video Blog at YouTube! I suddenly have this passion to do Video Blog after watching other people doing their Video Blog. It's just the same as doing my post here at Blogger but this is in Video type. So, I guess from now on if I don't update by blog here I'll keep update with you guys with my Video Blog then. So its fair and square right? I will post new blog by writing or by Video Blog if i'm lazy to type.  haha (X 

 

       Having to say that, I would be happy if you guys can SUBSCRIBE or even LIKE my YouTube Channel if you like it. I have more than 20++ videos uploaded already now , either you'll see me dancing cause I did a lot of performance for the past years now.. and I just want to share you guys what I call "JOY" or I might just talk about something I find interesting to talked or to share with you guys ! (you can also just give me some random question for me to answer at facebook) well that depending with the question though. haha. 

    

        That's it for now then. talk to you soon !

Happy Halloween!

Trick or Treat? XD

Hey Readers,

          I hope your having a good weekend and a happy Halloween for those who celebrated it. Halloween supposed to be spooky before but these day, Halloween are more than spooky and fun ! People change those spooky outfit to someone they wanna be on that day. for example, if they wanted to be a cartoon animation they will wear those cute outfit and some wanna be like their favourite singer like Beyonce etc too !! 

         This year, i'm not going to party with friends for Halloween but I had a great Thursday with family at home plus my lil sister is here and that's make it even more awesome ! XD

           I honestly have so much more to tell you all about what happening with my life so far and I cant wait to share with you. Stay tuned!

22

Happy Birthday Cyril,

    Honestly, I can't believe i'm 22 years old now.. but there you go, like it or hate it I am 22!

    Looking back from the past, I have through some awesome and also less awesome road and have lead me to who am I today. I'm not sure if I am the only once consider Birthday is like a personal New Year for myself??!! haha

    I think, this year must had the most unexpectedly challenging year for me. Haven't pursue my study yet, make some new friends .. lost friends.. yet still working the same company, busy schedule with the performances here and there, started modelling career, good progressing in singing competition and that's not all.. and I thank God for this experience and the give of life, without Him i'm nothing after all.

    Truthfully, I haven't change at all but i'm getting to understand how to take responsible yet still learning how to have fun with the journey. Money come and go. Friends come and go but family is forever.

    I just hope I can be a better person and successful in the future, a good son to my both parent (make them proud) and just enjoy the ride. 

    Thank you to all my friends and family for wishing my birthday and May God bless you ! Love you all so much !

TMTH

      It's been nearly 4 months since our argument over stupid matters and we never talk since then. I'm not going to say that i'm move on and doing alright since we didn't get any closure from this unfortunate event. 

         Honestly I never really get angry towards you after what happen rather trying my best to save our friendship but it seems that you chose to throw off 2 years and a half of our friendship to save your other relationship.. i'm still trying to figure it out and that's truly hit me hard in the heart. 

           It felt like somebody suddenly came to you and slap you in the face real hard! Different is that, I still can feel that pain in my heart until this moment on and i'm trying my best all the time to comforted my heart that it's going to be okay but my heart is still crying for more!

        I don't know why is it affecting me so hard since I thought that we are really close and it's felt that I just lost a brother and a good friend of mine. Sometimes I just want to snap out of it but it's just not working so I fake a smile to everyone to show that I'm okay and move on eventhough i'm not and it's really hard... really

        I remember I cried to sleep on my bed almost every night cause I can't help but to think what goes wrong? what did I do? how to solve..? I could only pray for the good..

        Thank God, I still have friends especially one that is understanding and there with me all the time to comforted me in my hardship . I felt half of my burden was lift up slowly but then again i'm feeling guilty to take that advantage and I might lost her too for my stupidity action.

         I'm writing this not to expect anyone to feel pity on me but I just want to say that I am truly deeply sorry to all my friends if i ever hurt them any possible way . As a fragile human being I do makes many mistake too .
  
        You all bring out the best in me when i'm with you and I will rather sacrifice myself than  to know that I am the reason of your bitter-heart. I love all of you from the bottom of my heart !

         My birthday coming up just a couple days to go and I only wish and hope that all of my friends and my family could forgive my wrong doing towards all of you. That's all I wanted for my birthday. 

P/S: I still remember our first meeting and I thank God for giving this opportunity to get to know all of you

Thank you for reading.

Weekend!!

Dear readers, 

     Hi again! hows your Saturday? i'm sure y'all have great weekend don't you? Hey! if not, don't worry the weekend is not ended yet! Just try to do something awesome tomorrow okay?

     Having to say that, I just have an exciting day today cause i just bought an acoustic guitar just for me!! Muahaha!! well, it's just "Ibanez" , nothing much. I've been wanting an acoustic guitar for myself for centuries!! Now i have my own then i could play aaaaall daaaay long ! How awesome is that right?!! 

     This evening I brought my dad to "WUKKA" , the place where a my good friend and I use to hang out :DD  ....kinda miss that place and the memories we had.. but.. back to my dad ! haha yeaah my dad seems please with the comfortable place and we other our food .. me as usual the fav, "Cheese baked chicken rice" and "ice lemon honey tea".. MMmmmm! just typing  that makes me wanna go take another supper! haha ... Well dad just have some "Nasi goreng" and some "Mushroom Soup"

     

     He comments that he didn't expect the food and the soup tastes would be that delicious ... He kinda overwhelmed with the dishes we had. hahaaha BINGO!!

       but my dad's expression of the food made me burst to laughter!! cause he's so funny! aaaaahhhh thats just make my day. 

Something just happen without we expecting and that is all good. Eventhough I din't get enough rest for the day but I enjoy and im just happy i could spent lil bit time with my dad alone. 

This has been amazing month for and it's just started ! :DD i hope you have a great month too :)

Work work Work

1 week working at Night Shift??? No problemm... now transform!! Owl power! O.O 

Dogs...

What can i say, i'm just animal lover. Met this cutie when we were at 1Borneo at Stella brought me to a store full of animal cause she knows that i love all of these ! just want to share with you guys :DD Do you love animal too?

Mission Accomplished !

I told you this will be my lucky month !!! hihi

I just.....

September, Exciting Month :DD

If there's any month that is exciting, September would be my choice for every year.. hihihi.. only those who close to me would now knows why I love this month ! I hope this would be my lucky month ! 


Happy September everyone!

Carlsberg Diamond Idol 2013

Dear readers, how are you?!
it's been awhile since my last post right? well i'm back with more stories of me!


As usual, im waiting for opportunity to come and to grab it as soon as possible haha! This time, Carlsberg Diamond Idol 2013 giving me chance to show my capibility or my progress in my singing career.

DO I HAVE WHAT IT TAKES TO BE AN IDOL???? let seee hahaha


AUDITION DAY 28/08

Above picture taken after our audition which is on 23rd August at Zsa Zsa Zsu fun pub.

I sang "You raise me up" and "Belaian Jiwa" and the judge seems to like it but also commented that I should let go and eye contact with the judges and the audience as well. i would agree with that cause my nervous attack me when i the called my name as the first contestant as i thought i will be the 5th contestant and i wasnt ready yet! but YOLO! I just walk to the stage and trying to hide my nervous! hahahaha

because theres a lot of people who didnt show up , all of 9 of us get through to the final which is the next day!

FINAL DAY 29/08

My heart pumped so fast i could control my shaking hands but i try to calm myself by motivated myself .. hahaha!

Before we start anything, the emcee called all of us to take picture as below!

We even took picture of ourselves together (Wong, June, Me, Karen & Sandra)

Im not sure if you notice, i was the 7th contestant to perform and that is very good for me to prepare myself ! and then, my turn to perform.... I was supposed to sing "Home" by Micheal Bubble but the i change to "Sway" by the same singer cause i know that "Home" is not quite good to start the performance. I was quite enjoy with my performance cause i was doing the cha cha and just teasing the judge as I sang "Sway" by Micheal Bubble for the 1st song. :DD (make couple lyrics twisting right there as usual :/ )

The judges is very good to me as the really like my performance but they comment that i need to dance more and said that the song is to low for me ( i need to practise high note song then hehehe) I was happy with the comment given to me. :DDD

After all of us performed, the emcee once again called all of us to announce who will be able to qualify to the final round but before that, the judges were called to give us the Carlsberg Diamond Idol certify to prove that we have join the competition :DD

I wasn't expecting to qualify to TOP 5 round as all of them are amazing and most of them have the strong voice as if the control their voice extremely just perfect! So I just took the time to enjoy the moment. But then...

The emcee shouted my no. and my name !! I was so suprise !! happy aswell!! then we were asked to take a small Carlsberg envelope and to see our no. for the final round! i got no. 2nd *O*

I sang "Home" and im absolutely didnt expect to win with that song but to sing it with all my heart and i was singing someone very dearly to my heart  which is not in that room .. not here not anywhere in Sabah also.. but yeah i was just sing from the heart.. the judges seems quite like it.. Ultimately i was happy to get the 4th place overall and just be thankful for the opportunity given by the Carlsberg to share my talent :))

This competition has open my eyes and my heart that I CAN DO THIS and i was PROVEN that i have my TALENT as a singer ! & i will absolutely will be more prepare with awesome song  for the next one !!!

....and thank you fo reading my post this time ~ :DD

turning point...

      Saw this photo taken at MPT Tawau for the Pesta Kebudayaan Tawau at the KDCA Tawau page and i was like =_=' ... this performance could be the most remember of my singing carrier but turns out the worse experience of my entire life. Management horribly sucks yet wanted an international performance. Buruk punya perangai! Menunding jari sana sini mimang tu perangai no wonder au buli maju bangsa !!

       I quit at the last minute because of the rearrange of the singer kunun. Au katahanan sama the management sudah , my own leader didnt help me at all so thank you so much to all of you..

        But i thank you Lord for giving this opportunity to taste hows it like to live in this reality of showbiz. Beside I met a lot of talented people and good people here.
  
        God does not abandoned me after the insidence. not long after that i get a lot of offer from many places!! Just a week after the Pesta, i trained for the Filipino performance, Modelling, Sumazau, Dancing as  shared to you on previous post :D and i just finish all of the performance this month!

         GOD IS GOOD INDEED! He may not give you what you want but He surely will give you more that you wish for if you just be patience and trust Him! Just like i said, its a turning point for me!

You are my song...

You are the song
Playing so softly in my heart
I reach for you
You seem so near and yet so far
I hope and I pray
You'll be with me someday
I know down inside
You are mine and I'm your true love
Or am I dreaming

How can I
Each time I try to say goodbye
You were there
You looked my way, I touched the sky
We can share tomorrow and forevermore
I'll be there to love you so
You are my song

I know for sure
That we were meant to fall in love
I look in your eyes
I know what you're thinkin' of
I try not to say
The words that might scare you away
I know down inside
You are mine and I'm your true love
Please, no more dreaming

How can I
Each time I try you say goodbye
You were there
You looked my way, I touched the sky
We can share tomorrow and forevermore
I'll be there
To love you so
You are my song
You are my song

We can share tomorrow and forevermore
I'll be there
To love you so
You are my song
You are my song
You are my song

Ollaa, I'm back!!

dear readers,

   HAIIIII!! Miss me? yeah I know i miss you guys too, lol. yalah, it's been a month since i updated my blogkan because i was still busy preparing for my next performances on that time but no worry cause here i am now with my Lemon juice ready to update you what had happening to me!! 

   Yes! I am excited to shared with you guys my experience along all the performance i did for about one month plus. Let's see if i could refresh back all the performances and competition i involve :   

20/04/2013 - Secretary Night Fashion Show (Catwalk @ Lau Gek Poh Foundation)

27/04/2013 - Zsa Zsa Zsu Fun Pub Soft Opening (Dance Performances with the Baila Sayaw @ Zsa Zsa Zsu)

04/05/2013 - Promenade Bridal Fair (Catwalk & Dance performances @ Promenade Hotel Tawau)

11/05/2013 - Wedding Function (Sumazau Performance with the Bimbizangan Family @ Lau Gek Poh Foundation)

                 - Sugandoi Semifinal (Singing Competition @ Zsa Zsa Zsu,Promenade Hotel Tawau)

12/05/2013 - Harvest Festival (Sumazau Performance with the Bimbizangan family @ Holy Trinity Church)

19/05/2013 - Tawau District Harvest Festival (Singing Competition Final @ Kg. Tass)

25/05/2013 - Gom's Family Gathering (Singing & Dance performance with Maria Gom's Clan @ Togop Penampang)

04/06/2013 - The University of Philippines Concert Chorus (Filipino folks dance performances with Tawau Filipino Group @ Dewan Resital, UMS, Kota Kinabalu)
09/06/2013 - San Juan Festival/St. Dominic Church Feast day (Dance Performances with Holy Trinty Filipino Youth @ St. Dominic Church, Lahad Datu)



Wow! I can't believe i did this all performances! :DDD
but yes i did it and all praise and thanksgiving to God alone :)
also i wanna thank you all my family & friends for giving me support with all of that, its imposilbe for me to the things i love the most while im still young kan, while masih kuat badan bilang XD

Love you all so much ! May my ultimate dreams come true!

Thank you Lord

all started with dream, hardworking and believing myself ~ now.. my hardwork beginning to pay off. thank you Lord for your present to me by answering my prayer :)

Promenade Bridal Show

 

 

 

04/05/2013

    Another awesome fashion show with awesome supermodel Patient, Jacky, Flora, Michelle & Stephanie for Bridal Show at Promenade Hotel Tawau Grand Ballroom for D'Story sponsored by Ms. Evony!

 

 

Bridal Fair performances with them :DDD

I'm having so much fun dancing with them ..

We practise for a very short time but we nailed it !!Enjoy our performances :DDD

MODEL BRIDAL PROFOLIO

ANGELA (LAHAD DATU)

CHLOE (KK)

KARL (KK)

MICHELLE (TAWAU)

FLORA (TAWAU)

 CYRIL (TAWAU)

LINDA (KK)